Hello readers, I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas season and have now settled into a new ‘groove’ for the new year. Maybe it’s still an after effect of having to help my little guy put together several new Lego toys..I just have them on my mind lately. For some reason, I started visualizing my son’s educational program as a type of Lego House and have to admit the structure is crumbling.
In my experience, the ideal of having open/honest communication between parents and schools has unfortunately been just that: an idealistic concept, not a reality. The foundation is definitely there, but the “house” is crumbling day by day since no one wants to take the time to really work FOR us: to really get their hands dirty, pick up a hammer and build my son the type of I.E.P. that would actually work for him. We have wasted so much time attending meetings designed at least on paper to be for his benefit but when it’s time to be real we are spinning in circles rather than actually meeting his educational needs. How did the wheel fall off? What’s going wrong here? The biggest hurdle is an increasingly frustrating unwillingness to focus on ANYTHING academic coupled with using the potential for undesirable behaviours to be expressed at school as an excuse to exclude him from school while simultaneously limiting all attempts to teach him the way he can learn.
Why is this happening? I’m not sure if anyone who should actually knows how he learns because they still don’t really know him!! Many key people still see him as a list of conditions rather than a wonderfully intelligent, hilariously funny, inquisitive little boy who deserves to be at school just like anyone else. PERIOD. There, I finally said it out loud. What a relief..I’m actually sighing out loud as I’m typing this. That missing puzzle piece finally just “fit”. So now that I’ve solved this mystery what’s next??
Do I have to teach them how to teach him??? So far the approach of completely shutting down any type of academic instruction at the first hint of escalation ‘ish’ behaviour certainly hasn’t helped him learn crucial foundational skills he needs to build his educational house in the future. In fact, there are pages of useful suggestions on file from other dedicated professionals on how to creatively instruct a little fellow who is clearly intelligent and processes information differently than others. Not to mention, if anyone bothered to ask me on a regular basis, I could offer suggestions since before I was a Mommy I did work with children.
An incredible amount of negativity, judgement, dishonesty and the ever present ‘possibility’ of sending him home has greatly hindered any chance to improve the relationship we currently have with the school. The sad reality is, unless there is a willingness to see how clearly ineffective things have become, we won’t see improvement. The idea of suggesting an increase in medication in order to increase time spent in school is reprehensible, but is one I’ve heard. The irony to me is, his school professionals continue to have difficulty moving on to the task of developing an effective program and are in a sense hyper-focused on his behaviours…. perhaps there is medication for that??? I know there are ways to help him learn, he can do it with me at home and if I felt it was truly in his best interest we would have started down the homeschooling path at least a year ago. Instead, I know in my heart he will do best in the long run to have opportunities for social interaction and I’ll keep fighting to see effective changes to his program.
Sadly, I fear the relationship with the school may be irreparable, it may never be that idealistic, positive, proactive one I had imagined when he began his scholastic journey. It will, however be more of what he needs educationally as long as I have any fight left in me, any air left in my lungs and now that I’ve finally found my voice again, I don’t intend to be quiet. I will seek out accountability since it seems to be conveniently absent when it’s clearly needed most. I just wonder, how many parents out there in our big wide world are walking a mile in my shoes and if they have been able to turn things around in a positive way. Does anyone feel isolated and ever wonder where their school ‘village’ is? (i.e. “it takes a village to raise a child”). Maybe I need to hire a private ‘construction crew’? Isn’t it just a tiny bit ironic that my lovely little boy keeps saying that he wants to be a construction worker when he grows up and he just wants to go to school to learn?
Not to worry buddy, Mommy’s trying to re-build your educational Lego house. Dream big… you can be anything you want to be and I know in my heart, despite the roadblocks you will grow up to do great things in this world…in fact, I think you already have.